On the topic of friends, in a way I feel like I have shunned a lot of them out of my life, some on purpose, others not. I have a group chat with a couple friends, but being a group chat full of busy people, it's not like we have the most in-depth conversations there. We may post a video or article, discuss it a bit, maybe a meme or two, and move on. I feel that is the reason I'm so active here, besides my girlfriend I don't have anyone to talk to about the things I like in person. Moving away from a lot of people in my life didn't help at all. All my friends are gamers too, but of different types and different levels of interest. Some have moved on mostly from games, but may occasionally play COD or Madden, while others play totally different types of games than I do.
These guys are my best friends, but we sure as hell don't act like it. As much as I love them, I don't feel like I have made any *real* friends in my life. They are fun to hang out and chat with, when we were all in school, we hung out every day, but it's one of those things as guys where we didn't really talk about real life issues, things that bothered us, dreams and aspirations, we were only interested in playing video games and getting high. No one cared what sort of things the other person was going through, unless it was something that was very obviously hurting them, but besides that we all grew up being taught to keep that kind of thing to yourself. Of course, we all know now these days that is not healthy, and you really do need friends that you connect to on a deeper level, even if you guys don't communicate every day, it's good to have that kind of person in your life.
Not sure if this post comes off as me being desperate or depressed, but I'm really not. I'm very happy and I'm also very introverted, so it doesn’t bother me much. The friends I do have are still great people to talk with, though it may not always be about real life or serious issues. My girlfriend is my best friend and we connect on that level. Being an introvert is weird because on one hand you want more friends but on the other you’re perfectly fine being by yourself. It’s also so hard to find people that share all the same interests as you.