I'm having n,n-DMT delivered to me so i can ascend to a higher plane of consciousness and ignore the awful world I'm living in. The deity's I meet will lift the veil of ignorance and I will begin to understand and accept the BTs as part of myself. And after 10 minutes, when the trip is over, I will reflect upon the profound knowledge I have gained and live in a state of tranquility. Then the rain will come, and all my faux-enlightened bullshit will go out the window and fear will take the front seat once again. And so I'll order more DMT.